What
is the measure?
Various
dangers emit a spit of contrition. It takes a long time to arrive at the point
of poisoning. The night, in its orange bleakness, surpasses the sunrise in its
utility. Language that ceases to be bent is best left unsaid. If you had seen
or loved me, buried underneath the glass bulb of home, you would describe the
inherent leisure of the library. We are moving the tomb into another country,
one where one sees what one will, only with more clarity or doubt. We live by
breaking our hearts in two. One half manages, the other mourns. Like hairs hung
in the deep wind of space, we linger like the body shadow of comfort. You see
the crowd of pilgrims as the ultimate absurdity: they want not what they want but what they
have to stay theirs. The disease in one eye speculates towards the other. They
crowd the road like an empty bowl amongst dogs. It wasn’t made mad, it has a
story, and that story is the madness meant to mean, meaning that there are
worse facts to reason with than simple autonomy. It is inquiry by difficulty,
bleeding along the edges of personal history and breach. The easy road stands a
burning and languishes in the ash of its trodden making. Colors bleach out the
makings, the wantings of measure. To talk of pleasure, we only babble about
want. The longings pour down like so many gumdrops, unaware of their want. I
want to be able to be alive as long as I can, but my wants prevent this so. We
measure things by successes, not by defeats. One whistles up the side of the
mountain and down the sound comes eventually. Timing is important, in the
middle of things, arms hung down and swaying. One talks of truth like a nervous
lover’s description of his beloved. Purpose has no purpose in the vicinity of
purpose. It is elected as an absolute without. We are moving on the heart for
awhile. We instill our purpose with a beat, a man stunk with gold. Riling
through the rough patches, you, queen returned, nestle in the bed of the becoming.
We
measure our things with our things, both body and soul.
